A Foggy Mind

Haunted by the demons of my regret, confused why i do things i dont mean, falling apart slowly everyday, but blinded by my own numbness, I AM OWN WORST ENEMY.

        When does a person realise that he is actually in love or even begin to phantom the possibility of ever truly being able to under what love is??  It is a perennial question that even the sages of the centuries gone by couldn't comprehensively answer.

       Is love a selfless feeling, when one gives up everything they hold dear, just to be able to spend their life(no matter how short or how long it is for) with that some one special, where u stand through thick and thin, trust each other blindly and expect nothing in return, EXCEPT a reciprocation of the same feelings??(you choose to fall in love)

       OR is love, a compromise where you don't live a dream world, weight things practically, apply the rule "WHATEVER U DO, I CAN DO AL WELL", and have a mutual understanding of live and let live??(you choose for want of a better option)

       It is this catch 22 situation, that clouds the clearest of minds, when THEIR time comes to fall into "LOVE". Do u become a shoulder to cry, a confidante who keeps all the secrets, a pillar of strength in times of need and a safety net on which one can lean on blindly, without the fear of every falling?? YES, would be unanimous reply, BUT for how long. How long can u just give n give n not expect anything in return. Is it too much to ask for something in return which you can show the world or is love just a feeling between two people and meant only for their understanding??

       How long do u keep on giving it ur best, is their any perfect time to call it quits when you know its not workin out, how do u know its not workin out, do u fight till the last breath for your love, or is it possible that LOVE is just a CONFUSED state of mind, where all ur senses become numb, u cant clearly demarcate what the relationship of that SPECIAL SOMEONE is with u?? questions, questions and more questions

       And once in "LOVE" is it not a natural progression that certain things which u took for granted, no matter how small a gesture they were, just fade away with time. Is it too crazy to want to hold on them , or is hurting the other person with the truth a better, higher and moral way to go?? Being open about your feelings is considered a mandate, but when does it lean towards neediness or even down right pathetic to your own self dignity n esteem??
     Does one look at the hidden meanin behind the gestures?? if u get it right, u know the other person so well, and if u dont, you end up being an ass, who thinks too much and is too childish and immature to understand things.
      SO THE QUESTION TO ASK IS whether to try and find "LOVE",cherish it and do whather ever it takes to make it work, with all its confusion OR just simply live at the other end of the spectrum, where u DO LOVE, its just that u love someone elses love ?????


 A DARK AND FOGGY MIND